(not sleeping lately. Mon:12-4 Tue: 3-8 Wed:still up at 4)

so besides having this on-again/on-not-so-much vision issue, meaning i’m always seeing double if i look to my right, but most of the time not seeing double if i look straight ahead or to my left -except most mornings, and in the evening, or down towards my lap, and if i have even ONE drink [i know. wtf?] - today i had one of those special times where i didn’t know if i should laugh, cry, or throw my food against the wall.  it’s like this:

i like tamales, but really, i eat tamales cuz i like the corn. i usually avoid the meat. so, wednesdays is tamale day at Beba’s, and they’re not great but they don’t suck, and i probably eat them 1x a month. so, sitting at my desk, trying to pick the “chicken” out from the corn, and i realize i can’t really focus on it. so i start moving the plate around to different locations in my field of vision….closer, to the left, maybe to the right…further up, and to the left, yeah that’s good, no further away, and then ,yes, i could only see my food clearly if it was at a place on my desk where i couldn’t actually reach it with my fork.

i stood up, hovered over it, and went in for a couple stabs, but it didn’t work. and i must admit, i felt defeated, and then just lost my appetite. i laughed a little, but really. and then i reminded myself how much i have to be grateful for, and swear to god, walked to Vivace and got a donut.  THAT i can see and put in my mouth. and that donut tasted great!

now this might sound depressing, and i won’t argue with you on that. but depression only gets you so far. and then it gets really lonely. so i try to stay away from that. i try to take times like today and learn from it, sit in it - JUST STEEP IN IT - and make it somehow another hippie ‘lesson from the universe’ and it felt like all those Zen & Macrobiotic teachings i read in my 20’s and then turned off, they come back. and trying to see all things as equal, in and out, light and dark, pain and joy, appreciate them all. it’s not easy, or always fun. but it gives me some comfort. forgetting is good too! one of my favorite books is from Milan Kundera, titled “the Book of Laughter & Forgetting”.

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someone told me today, “I heard you’ve been keeping high spirits through all this”. (nerve-damage in my brain resulting in double-vision)

“well, yeah” I said, “I just had to lower the bar a bit.”

and that, my friends, is the secret.

like, last week an optometrist told me,”you look really good, but you’ll never be back to 100%”. and i thought about that and said to myself, ‘no, i will get to 100%. it’ll just be a different 100% than before.’ call it adapting, or being flexible, or just re-writing our rules as we go along. but that’s what we do. or what i do.

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did you see the video of the 67-year old dude beat up the thug on the bus? well, he smacked him a few times, and drew blood, but it wasn’t a major beat-down. dude had it coming.

there’s a pretty woman in the middle of it. here’s a tribute to her. maybe she’s the Twiggy of the New Millennium.  the internet is so weird.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JN2Q6yiQ2VI

if you want to see the original altercation, it’s here:

http://slog.thestranger.com/slog/archives/2010/02/17/lunchtime-quickie-the-metro-bus-fight-to-end-all-metro-bus-fights

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http://www.king5.com/on-tv/evening-magazine/Future-Olympians-Snoqualmies-rising-snowboard-stars-84616187.html

how does frank always end up with the guy from Evening Magazine? last summer they faced off at the skatepark.

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Austen Sweetin WINS his division! Nice kid that was working for us earlier in the season, until he realized its way more fun to ride a snowboard than look at them all day. Keep your eyes on him, he’ll be moving up fast.


this was a great day for everyone, people striving, competing, achieving awesome feats of athleticism and skill, many of them getting schooled by a 9-year old from Ballard, (Franks BFF) Milo Malkoski. I’ve known Milo since he was born, and he blows minds with his combination of strength, balance, and timing (that’s kinda’ what most sports are, now that i think of it). Others can write about how he’s the next whatever, (and they will) I’d rather share some of my favorite pics of him. i couldn’t find any of him alone. always with Frank.

and they skate together all summer.



and they get their spray on..



but what i probably enjoy more, (cuz it won’t last) is that they get excited about the Legos Convention.

they were seriously geekin’ out, spending WAY too much, like, $8.00





anyway, we’re stoked and proud of Milo. he took 2nd, but more important, he took 2nd with grace.

and that’s what you work towards as a parent. Props to Johan.

Sunday was a big one for me, as it was the first time all season i got on the snow. my eyes have been improving a lot in the last month, due to - well, who knows? i have my suspicions:Hot yoga at a studio that just opened in SLU. www.breathehotyoga.com . i’ve never done it before, but i’ve been going about 3x a week since the first of the year. also, acupuncture 1x a week from KentuckyGinseng. and my decision to stop wearing an eyepatch whenever possible. just fake it. i walk around, sit at my desk, and just pretend i’m not seeing double. and you know what? sometime i don’t.

So that’s what i took to the slopes : don’t look at things, and just let my legs respond to the snow, and i’ll get down somehow. it worked, and i was able to FINALLY ride with Frank, and see how much he and his friends have progressed.

And, i got to visit with old friends, like D. Donnely, Gwynn Howatt, and TeamGalbraith. [i swear, if i could pick a doppelganger on sheer postivity and energy, it would be a toss-up between Jessie Lu and my sister Aurora. and -surprise- we all have the same birthday.] here’s a couple snaps that Jess took.







so, some big breakthroughs, plus Frank and i spent Sat. night in B’ham at the La Quinta Inn with the Extreme Frenchman and his son matteo and paavo saari.


5 in a room. watching spongebob.


i told them La Quinta means “whale penis’ . they liked that.



they call him “chowda”. well, Johan does.

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not content to see all the pretty ladys wearing whacky glasses, i found this in my inbox tonight.

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who needs lift tickets?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KOyQBSMeIhM

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i told him that skill should trump crotch-grabs. he’s about :22 from the end of this clip. classy. not.

http://fresh.snowboardermag.com/video/boxes-for-days-recap-video/

Read more

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Tags: frank grabs his balls

not really a prison tat, though he claims it feel like it some days.

happy kid! lucky me!

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Tags: "i did this to stay positive"

so, in case you haven’t had the misfortune to work with me, i now have to patch one eye to do any computer work or reading. otherwise i see double and get tired/dizzy/weird. eyepatches are not always easy, because they don’t fit well, mess up your hair, creep up your face, etc. one way around this is to take a pair of clear glasses, and “fog” one lens. this cuts out the double-vision.

fogging is best achieved by covering the lens with scotch tape. with sunglasses, it goes un-noticed; people just think you’re a rock star wearing shades indoors. Van’s sent us some cheap sunglasses, and i promptly knocked the lenses out, and did my custom tape job. it’s wacky as shit to have to look at me, and take anything i say seriously, but it’s the only way i can get anything done. thankfully, people here are painfully polite, or in fear of their jobs, and they cut me some slack.

i’m lucky to associate with some of the nicest women in seattle, and they’ve agreed to be photographed wearing my clown specs. i’ll let these out one or two a week.

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